My activity levels have dropped significantly since the Eugene Half Marathon and I'm having a hard time, on many fronts.
In fact, I (and doc) think the sudden decrease (in combination with fetal development phase I just went through + other work/life stress) messed with my already volatile hormone levels because I've struggled this month, emotionally/mentally, in a way that I never have. I went to a very dark place that I don't want to go back to. I fell slowly then hit hard, and now am climbing back out. I fear that door opening again and particularly fear for what may happen post-partum.
I didn't have any of these issues with my first pregnancy so don't have the tools in place to handle these things. I'm working on it so I can be ready if/when it happens again. Such a strange feeling. Why does no one ever talk about this stuff happening DURING pregnancy, only AFTER pregnancy?
Anyway, with all that crap and some lower back and allergy/cold issues, it's been tough trying to pick up the activity levels again in an effort to buoy my mental & emotional game. Let me tell you, this is tougher than any other training I've done to date. I'm really struggling to find the energy and time to exercise outside of my commute, even though I know it is CRITICAL.
This makes me nervous.
- I don't want to go back to the dark place.
- I also don't want to lose the fitness I've maintained so well into this pregnancy.
- I want to go into my delivery as physically and mentally strong as possible; exercise is critical.
- If I stop exercising this early in pregnancy, it will be much more difficult to regain fitness after delivery.
- Running, and only running, gives me significant emotional and mental peace and strength.
- Other forms of exercise will help me arrive at delivery strong but don't quite soothe the savage beast within.
- Running is becoming increasingly challenging, physically, for my lower back and feet/ankles.
- I fear that if I continue to run much longer, I will cause injury that I will need to rehab post-pregnancy (over-extending already loose ligaments).
- I need to find a way to get the same mental benefits from non-running exercise.
I need to temporarily let go of running without letting my activity level continue to drop.
It's so strange to STOP when, unlike with an injury, I know I CAN run but just think it's not the best choice for my back/ligaments right now. I need to stop soon so I can run injury free in the future...
I need to force myself to hit that pool, free weight section, and elliptical as if it were a refreshing run on a perfectly cool, drizzly day that washes away all the stress.
Any tips? Should I ask my husband to hide all my running shoes?
How do you motivate yourself to exercise in a gym while we are having a lovely spring and summer is coming?