At 9 a.m. (in the coffee), 11 a.m. (pre-lunch), 2:00 p.m. (afternoon relaxation), and 8 p.m. (evening reprieve). But I haven't done that. I've thought about it even though I know it's not a healthy response.
Given what is going on, I really think I have a reasonable excuse to be unhealthy for a few days.
What has stopped me?
Aside from the reality that numbing my mind wouldn't help anything and really would just make me feel worse (!!), running and other exercise is what is really helping me through this. If I have an Irish coffee at breakfast, how am I going to feel good enough to run later in the day? If I indulge at lunch, how am I going to lift weights in the afternoon?
Running has saved my liver. It's helped motivate me to not be stupid.
Running has also kept me from wanting to consume the box of See's chocolates sitting on my counter (will someone come remove those please?).
Running has provided stress and tension relief.
Running has cleared my mind and brought some peace, even if temporary.
Running has helped me breath. I've been holding my breath all day, every day this week and that just doesn't work when you're running.
Running has helped tire me out so I can have more restful sleep.
I haven't felt good enough to run very much, but it's enough to keep my feet on the ground this week.
Things are going to improve; we're just waiting for some time to pass.
Now, I need to move on and am looking forward to my best friend's wedding this weekend. I look forward to focusing on my most amazing girlfriends, re-hashing our Vegas shenanigans (including the RNR Half), and thinking about all the fun ahead of us (maybe I can trick them into more races?).
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